Nobody knows it's empty, this smile that I wear
The real one is left in the past, 'cz you have left me there…
Nobody knows I'm crying, they won't even see my tears
When they think that I'm laughing, I still wish you were here…
Nobody knows it's painful, they think I'm so strong
They say this won't kill me, but I wonder if they were wrong…
Nobody knows I'm praying that you'll change your mind & come back
They think I've let you go when you'd left me behind…
Nobody knows I miss you, they think I feel set free
I feel like I'm trapped with you, bound in our past…
Nobody knows I need you, they say
I hated it when you kept me awake at night
I hated it when I couldn't beat you in a fight
I hated the mornings that lacked your presence
I hated the nights you vanished while I missed you immense
I hated the sadness you missed from my eyes
I hated the fence that bound my voice
I hated your ignorance when I sounded so low
I hated that I said yes when I wanted to say no..
I hated it when you made me wait so long
I hated even more when you just forgot & smiled on..
I hated it when you turned me so numb
I hated even more when I acted so dumb..
I hated when we reached the end of our flow
But it's better that way, because I loved you so...
I just don't know anymore,what is going around me
Is this wrong or right, how things I want them to be?
I feel so helpless and I feel so confused
Do I really regret the words that I used?
I'm stuck between you, my life and my love
I can't choose in between, never will meet these two end...
I want both in my life, but how is this possible?
Someone help me through this, to make things bearable...
Staring out the window in the dark night
Soulless eyes looking on without their sight
Feeling so cold, feeling so lost
Feeling like pulling curtains on a show apart
Emotions disguised behind a stone-hearted wall
Trying to avoid this bottomless fall
Piercing shards of ice-like words
Cuts so deep, burning phantom cords
The warmth in which I burrowed myself
It's loosing power that it held in itself
I long for the time I had it all
Saying I could do without it, how I had the gall?
Very special thanx to my beta Gemenice for helping me out with this! ^_^
xxx
The one with Tyson
He was sitting in the same swing for over an hour now. People were staring but he paid no attention. It was sort of weird after all, for a 17 year old boy to sit on the swing and even for over an hour at that. He wasn't even swinging; only sat there holding the chains and staring at the ground. His bright blonde hair was shining with lightly orange hue in the evening light. His baby blue eyes were shining with tears that sat there on edge of falling, but no-one paid attention to it.
He was occasionally watching a small family enjoying, just bei